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Written 1996

Everyday…

Another day…

Only disbelieving.

Always wondering…

Lingering…

For reality to set in.

~

Time…

Passes slowly.

Yet so quickly.

As every other second of my life,

He cannot see.

But the time is slow,

as I am unsure of my loss

and its meaning

~

The religious believe:

A loss is a gain.

A better life begins,

upon the finale of another.

But he was an atheist; a non believer.

~

So where next for him?

A question which cannot be answered.

But perhaps He can?

To ask God,

would contradict my father; his beliefs.

~

Searching…

Hoping…

For impossible answers.

Watching those with fathers,

taking them for granted.

~

Their complaints,

such petty complaints.

Prove to me only their selfishness within.

If only they knew,

how precious it is

to have more than memories

“fond memories”.

~

Concentration…

Hard thinking…

Only to remember him,

shouldn’t be necessary.

But life is unfair.

~

Thoughts…

These constant thoughts.

All such blurred memories.

Frost my window to such cruel reality

Clarity fades,

my world is full of confusion